While I won't lie about how demanding becoming a parent has been, it is also one of the most rewarding things---if not THE most rewarding thing---I have ever experienced. These two little boys have my whole heart. I think they are perfect, and hope they always know even a little bit how wonderful they really are. They couldn't be more opposite in so many ways, yet are so similar in so many other ways! I think about them growing up into boys/teenagers/men/husbands/fathers some day and I'm excited to see who and what they become.
I know some days--a lot of days--I'm a complete failure as a mother. I am nothing compared to so many other great women/moms in this world. I have to try not to focus on others too much. But I can only hope that they will grow up knowing I gave my very best. That I have tried my best to teach them all I can to be good people. That they will know they are perfect, and to always strive to be GOOD. Because some day, they too will be parents. It'll be their turn to have their hearts go walking around outside their bodies in the form of a little person. I never knew how great my parents (and other so many amazing parental figures) were in my life until I had kids myself. (Okay, I always knew my parents were great, but having kids myself just really reinforced that knowledge). I sure love these two little guys, and am so grateful they are mine forever!
(pictures taken in March for Bennett's first birthday)