So how are we doing? I get asked that question a lot. Followed closely by, "How's Beau?" To be completely honest, we are great. Life with 2 kids has been every bit as hard as I expected, yet at the same time, not nearly as hard as I expected. I can feel both ways right? That's not to say I haven't had my breakdowns, because trust me, I have! The first being the night my mom went home (of course!). Bennett was 8 days old, and she was scheduled to leave in the morning. We took her to the airport and said our goodbyes. It was our first long car ride out---and a fairly successful one at that. Only one minor meltdown from Bennett on the way home, so I stopped to feed him in a parking lot. (The first of many times I have done that now!). I arrived home to see Beau holding a sleeping Bennett's hand in the car. My heart melted for my 2 little boys. And I thought to myself, "I've got this! I can do this!" By 4pm I was still feeling good. Mentally and physically going strong. By 8pm? Singing a different tune. Devin still wasn't home from work. My house was a wreck. The nightly exhaustion was starting to set in. I was nursing Bennett on the front, while Beau was literally straddling me in the back with his arms around my neck. Aaaaaand, I lost it. As to be expected, right? :) One quick phone call to my mom and sister later, I felt better. I knew that some things were just going to have to go by the wayside while we all adjusted to our new routine. (I've had a good chuckle at the mental image of both my kids literally hanging on me that first night alone!) Since then, I have done much better. Only a couple of legitimate meltdowns (and maybe a daily moment or two that I am on the verge of tears until I remind myself to get a grip)---one when I had absolutely no food in the house (or diet pepsi!) but couldn't muster up an ounce of courage to go to the store with both kids, and another breakdown or two due to some intense cabin fever and a naughty toddler. Other than that? Doing pretty good!!
I am successfully nursing Bennett. Maybe too much information to post online, but I don't care. I am so thrilled things are going well so far. This was something I kind of got to attempt with Beau, but ultimately was not successful. Now, I am loving not pumping, cleaning bottles, or worrying about wasting/mixing/packing formula. Nursing definitely consumes a lot of my day, but it's so convenient! And guarantees some good snuggle time! (Although, our first night at home was ROUGH. Obviosly my milk wasn't in yet, so Bennett was up almost every hour. While he seemed to be full each feed, it wasn't holding him very long. By 7:00am, with hardly any sleep for either of us, I attempted to give him a bottle. Which he chugged. And proceeded to pass out for 6 hours after that. Sad! Glad he was full and happy, but I will do things differently next time for sure!) Bennett likes to eat, that's for sure. At our last pediatrician visit, he was up to 8 pounds 7 ounces. (That apt was actually a circumcision follow-up......which was not a pleasant experience. Bennett had a rough recovery that first night after his procedure. Having 2 boys, this was not my first experience with circumcision, but wow did Bennett struggle! So so sad---enough to make me not want any more boys! Not really, but my heart ached for him seeing him so sensitive and hurting! Beau's circumcision was not nearly so traumatic! We had to keep his diaper off of him for most of the night.)
Life is good. Crazy, exhausting, sometimes hectic, sometimes slightly mind-numbing due to too much TV and time cooped up inside the apartment, but it's okay. This phase will go so fast. Too fast. I want him to stay little as long as possible! Both of my boys for that matter!!
So, that's it. Bennett is exactly 4 weeks old today. Happy almost 1 month sweet boy! (Also, I want to wish a huge happy birthday today to the little girl who made me an aunt for the very first time. I love you Brooklyn!!!! 4 years old today!! Proof that someone has life on fast-forward!!)
Here is our life in pictures---somewhat out of order but I'm not rearranging them---with visits included from my mom (when Bennett was a week old) and my in-laws (when Bennett was 2.5 weeks old). Two million pictures later, and about that many diapers too, days 1-28............